Tar Filled

why do i feel nothing?

the more i want the more i miss

my desires are fleeting

i hurt because i can

i destroy so i can shine

was there a time when i was pure?

i want to be clean

i want to be happy

i want to be able to love

i miss these so much

i'm sorry that i hurt

i'm sorry that i hate

i wish i was filled

i am so empty

can anything save me?

dear God, please save me from myself

my heart is missing, where is it?

my soul is numb, can it be saved?

is it too late for me?

ill find out when i say my final goodbye

Life

ME.

me?

Me!

Me:

[ME]

welcome, please exit quietly

i hide from those around me

i show what i do not feel

i'm scared what's real will turn false

i fucking hate what i've allowed

how do i know whats really real?

am i my feelings or my actions?

i have two hearts

one hates me

one hates the other

do i need a heart duo?

i need peace, but it never comes

i need rest, but i fear it

i hope for drama that comes too soon

i miss the old and hate the coming

do i know what i want?

i know what i do not want, i dont want this

will i miss the turmoil when it no longer comes?

i live in the shadows of hope, wishing i could see the sun

my life is one giant fuck

alot of work to get to the exciting end